Does it ever get easier?

I don't mean to complain but I am going to. Motherhood sucks right now! Poor Abbi has been sick all weekend. It started Friday afternoon at the farm and got worse. We spent 4 hours in emerg on Friday night because she was throwing up...Saturday she could not be put down and I carried her around and rocked her the entire day. It was nice when she fell asleep on me but it was exhausting to say the least. Well today she got the runs and now diaper rash has also set in. I swear I am at my wit's end.

To top all of this off, Thursday we found out that we are looking at only having about 6 months left with my mom. I honestly don't know how to live without her. She is such a great friend and mentor. I love her so much and can't believe that our time is getting so limited.

Two good things though have recently happened- I got a new job and a good raise and I am done my final course for my masters on Tuesday - yep in two days. It has been hell to get through this course but the end is in sight.

I wanted to post and say that Abbi is walking. She started on Sunday (the 9th- I think). At first she would only really do it in her room but now she tries it everywhere. She has this kind of drunk strut when she walks that makes me laugh. It is so cool to see how quickly she learns. She is carrying things around and trying to carry 3 toys at the same time etc...too cute.

On a different note, my mom is sick and back in the hospital. I had really hoped that this wouldn't be the case but it seems as though chemo wasn't effective for her. We are in a bit of a waiting game right now but it doesn't look good. It is so hard to think about all of the what if's. I don't even know what to write or type because nothing seems to be what I really feel.

Praying for my mom.