stress

Tonight I am feeling much better and less stressed because I have been able to spend a good amount of time on my classes today and feel as if I am swimming and not sinking. I appreciate the essence of this course and strive to make it work for me but I also know that this term is going to be very very busy and I will get stressed out at some points. Instead of bottling up my stress and blowing up at people (my husband), I need to talk about my stress and let him know what is bothering me. That is what I need more than anything.

I am really looking forward to seeing my mom tomorrow. I am visiting her for a couple of hours. She has had her 2nd last chemo therapy treatment and is feeling pretty down but I know that seeing her grand daughter always makes her feel a little bit better. Everyone keeps saying that my daughter looks like my mom. Today I was reflecting on that and it brought tears to my eyes. Abigail is the first girl in our family ( I have 6 nephews and no nieces) and she is the apple of my parent’s eye right now. Knowing that she reminds everyone of my mom makes her even that much more special because my mom is so special to so many people. Perhaps Abbi was born to carry on my mom’s torch.

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lost in space

well I just typed a message and it is now gone. Frustrating....

I was saying that I haven't been on in a while because I have become slightly addicted to an online forum for moms at www.babywhisperer.com. It has been keeping me busy when I am procrastinating from my courses....

I am taking 4 courses this term. Nuts I know but I will appreciate it when I return to work in May. Lots happening. We toured daycare this week. Fingers crossed that we get in.

Going to ski this weekend. Can't wait for a bit of a break...will feel great to get outside. Hopefully can ski with Suz again.

I met with a counsellor about some of the issues I have been facing with my mom's illness and with dealing with motherhood etc....she said it sounds like I am dealing with changing core beliefs. She pin pointed that one of my beliefs is my ability to prove to other's that I can do everything and not to show weaknesses. I was surprised to hear her pick this out so quickly. She said adulthood challenges these beliefs and that is good. I am starting to make new core beliefs and that is what needs to happen. ....

Should go and read.